For elfin14doaks....My Cheri, my love. by elfin12u
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On this anniversary of your birthday
I love you! A little over eight years ago you were a stranger to me, reaching out your hand, in one of my darkest hours ever. You made me realize that there was hope, and life still to be realized. You were my lighthouse, guiding my way back safely, keeping me from the breakers and shallow rocks, escorting me the way back to myself without any harm. You didn’t know me then, and after I was safe and secure, you withdrew. I was left marveling and wondering about this wondrous angel, who came out of the night. I felt a caring never experienced by another not of my own family and blood, and yet when I inquired back of you,…the reply was “I’m ok”.
For the first time in five months, my mind turned from what was, to who is this. I needed to know more, and ever so slowly, you who had saved me, began to answer my questions in more than two or three words. Soon it became five, and then whole sentences. A few weeks later we actually were conversing online, whole conversations. I loved you then as I do now, but I remember those words being said at that time were almost simultaneous, I was typing it as you were, and send was hit at almost the identical time, your words came onto my screen immediately after I had hit the enter key. You loved me too!!! My heart soared; there was no way you knew what I had sent, as you were sending. Then we talked on the phone, your voice was magic to my ears, so sweet and angelic,….you were my angel, and I loved you even more!
Where you lived was horrific, I couldn’t imagine you even trying to survive and raise a family there, by yourself. And then we met, and spent the day together. The feeling was that I’d known you forever, yet there was something lacking so noticeably from such a beautiful soul. You walked as though beaten down, no self confidence, almost as if you were subservient,…you, who had helped to save me. It wasn’t long before you agreed to move from that rat infested, crack dealing neighborhood to here. I’d have been willing to move too, but to a strange town where the only person you knew was this guy you had met a few months ago, was almost nuts! Your family there protested, I think back on it now, and agree with them. How could you trust your heart so much, to just blindly pick up and leave?
Since that time we have been through a great deal, pretty much have run the entire gambit of what all of life can hold. Your son has progressed from a just get by student, to honors, co- editor of the school paper, and has every college yearning and beckoning him. And you M’lady, now walk with your head up, and bow to no one, my butterfly becoming! I love you still and more than when we first met. I’ve always told you since that first day, that the bar wasn’t exactly set so high, as you hold me in such high esteem. You smile at me with that heart melting smile of yours, and tell me there is no one else like me. You complete me, I am one to take everything lightly, not much emotion….I’ve learned the hardest of all ways to protect what little I have left. I find ways to joke about all. You care about everyone and everything, to the point that you will cry, over the plight of a stranger, a stray dog or cat,….and then I realize that it was this that brought you to me, the plight of a stranger, someone in need in the darkest of hours. You, who had so little to give, having been so beaten down that you could no longer even walk with your head up. I was just another stray that you reached out to, and brought light to the darkness. I wrote a poem to you a while back, “The words never spoken” In it I tried to express the fact that I could tell you I loved you, but not that I was in love with you. The difference is night and day, all parents love their children, but to be in love is a different type, so much more,…..so much more at risk, baring ones soul in a way that the only protection is to be loved back in like manner,….what you so freely gave me, with no protection in return. I believe you stayed for more than just hopeful wishes, perhaps a feeling in your heart that I just wasn’t being honest with my own. Looking back now, after typing all of this out, I realize that with that first contact you made, to hold me fast and not let me slip any further, I fell in love with you then, you not only probably saved my life, but also my heart. It’s just taken me all of this time to fully realize all of the feelings I’ve suppressed all so well. I had thought I had lost my heart, and all of this time you’ve holding it safe, guarding it dearly, wondering when I was ever going to take it back. I am such a fool at times, but this has all been probably my biggest folly. I thank you so much for everything you’ve done to protect me, probably mostly from me. I take ownership back now of that which you saved, my essence, my heart, all of the feelings and emotions. Now that it is mine again……………..I give it back to you my Cheri, for it ‘s always been yours anyway, but this time it’s mine to give, and not because you had saved it.
I am so in love with you my dearest, happy anniversary of your birthday. Thank you for patiently waiting for me to find me again,…it’s been so long!
Dave
Comments (28)
elfin14doaks
Love, I always knew. I was just waiting for you to be able to say it. I love you with all my heart. I always have and I always will. Thank you my love.
Faemike55
this is so beautiful and moving! it's hard to type with tears in my eyes to congratulate the two of you for your love and devotion! May you love as long as you live and may you live as long as you love!
myrrhluz
I've been riveted! Oh you two are just grand! Dave, those words were...beyond describing.
pspworkshop
Beautiful !!!!! A wish you good luck together.
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bazza
Lovely words Dave, just amazing, the opening of your heart to all on here is a great step to take, I just wish you both all the best in the life you make together, Just continue to love each other moreand more and you will be able to get through any trial that comes your way.. Lovely Birthday gift to the love of your life... Well done!!
wysiwig
Oh man, I'm tearing up to. I'm going to lose my membership in the 'All boys he-man club'. I don't have any champagne, just green tea, but I raise my mug to both of you. Here's to second chances.
2121
Wonderful
jendellas
WOW Dave, what beautiful words to Cheri. Thankyou so much for sharing with us all your love & devotion to her. Here's to Cheri & Dave two loving, caring people. xxxxxxx
auntietk
I read this with tears in my eyes as well. Your writing is beautiful and so obviously from the heart. Thank you for sharing this in public with your friends. You are fortunate to have met each other, and I feel fortunate to have you two in my life. I love you both very much!
Erestorfan
Wow...this was certainly a two tissue post!! You two are just SO right for each other and I am SO very happy that you have found each other. May you be blessed with many happy times and continue to hold on to that love that you both have...as long as you have that kind of love, you are among the richest people on earth....
HADCANCER
Wow that is a strong enduring love
mickeyrony
With all the requests and the remainder you are on that you had time of to appreciate this day lol..... Hiiiiiiiiii... Bravo your heart is filled of tenderness and it fills the love of your Beautiful Princess. Then what could be better?? Cheer still and mile thank you to divide your heart ((5++)) Avec toutes les demandes et le reste tu es sur lol que tu as eu le temps d'apprécier cette journée Hiiiiiiiiii Bravo ton coeur est rempli de tendresse et il se comble de l'amour de ta Belle Princesse . Alors quoi de mieux?? Bravo encore et mile merci de partager ton coeur ((5++))
LBJ2
A very beautiful and emotional birthday-anniversary gift. This is fine and sensitive writing for your loved one. Art from the heart. My best wishes that she will conquer, her newly found enemy.+5
guitar-slinger
touching ! very nice ! [^____^] Cheers, Roger
mrestey
Dave ... did I not say you should be a writer? Beautiful work my man! Sorry my image for Cheri is so late in coming. What can I say, I am a perfectionist.
Richardphotos
very nice dedication and writing
Hendesse
A wonderful dedication. My english is not as good to understand all but what I read is very touching.
helanker
If that isnt the most beautiful dedication I have ever seen. It took me some time to read, because there were 2 things against me here. Language and tears. OH My! I am deeply touched.. Wonderful to see so deep felt love. Wonderful.
clbsmiley
Excellent outpouring of emotion!!! You two make such a nice pair. Pair of what??? I am not sure sometimes... LOL I hope and pray all needs for you and yours will be received and prayers answered.
Minda
very touching and excellent dedication for cheri dave....sorry for late comment been very busy for fast few days..
anahata.c
well I guess "there wasn't a dry eye in the house" applies to this amazing love-letter to your beloved. An amazing, just amazing prose poem, you bared your soul & what you've been through & the depth of the love you found, and it's all so deeply touching. Love of this kind is deep & rare, it never comes without a long journey (& a baring of the deepest places in us); and it's just an amazing testament to both of you, to your honesty in front of the world, to how deeply Cheri touched & transformed you, and we know how much you've held & supported her...I think everyone knew this connection went deep, as we can see it day after day in the comments from both of you, in the humor you two share, in the connections you two share & how you make it all public in the most delightful & loving way. But now we can see what a deep journey's behind it, what it takes to open the deepest regions of the soul and lay them before someone, and what it gives when you & cheri hold each other through all the stuff you've been through. Beautiful, very very touching. My sitename is Sanskrit for "heart center": Literally "heart chakra"—the "c" standing for "chakra," which is a center to the yogis. The literal meaning of "anahata" is "the place of no sound,: or in other words a place so deep in the heart that sound comes 'out' of it, the silence from which all sound comes...Why am I telling you this? Because I understand something about the journey to the deepest wordless regions (I try, at least...) And this love letter comes from that region. And believe me, when you speak from that place, you move mountains. I'm not being figurative—you move mountains. The connection between you two is a mountain, struggles & climbs are part of it, but deep magisterial radiant jewels are at its core. A wondrous birthday letter. I wish you both the very best in the journey ahead. Love & light both your ways, M.
JaneEden
Dave this is full of compassion and sincerity, and it is so obvious that you and Cheri are a match made in heaven. Now I need a tissue, because you not only obviously touched your beloved's heart but mine too, and I suspect anyone else who reads this. Happy belated Birthday wishes Cheri, hugs Jane xx
MagikUnicorn
Hope you have fun with Chri's birthday :) Tomorrow is my turn ;-) turn to 48 ! Good Night
timtripp
what a wonderful story and sentiment
renecyberdoc
i agree with mke,i have to wipe my tears away,here i am back-these words are soo strong,having been through a lot of "shit"-sorry in my life myself i know what you are writing about. strong and fantastic dedication,may the light shine on you ever.
mgtcs
This is sublime my friend, excellent gift!
yakchat
full of love.....beautiful hon....
bmac62
Dave, so many fine words have already been written above...I'll just add my, "Atta boy. Well done. I'm sure this is the best birthday present Cheri received."